Special K Is Not An Anti-Depressant

To be frank, I have never done Ketamine. Nor will I ever.

But my first boyfriend, the Joker, did. Several times, in fact.

In May of 2010, him and I were solid. I was in love, he said he was. I thought we could and would go the distance. Then he went back home for the summer. And we were still together, trying the long distance thing. While back home for the summer, he did several drugs, but confessed later that his favorite and most used one that summer was Ketamine. 
Ketamine is an anesthetic medication that they use on cats, and other animals, to sedate them. It can also be used as a pain killer of sorts, by putting people into a, as the article describes, trance, or a “dissociative anesthesia.” I have heard as being in a hole. 
Basically, the Joker, as well as thousands of people have used, and use it for fun. 
Now, I assume that he had several depression things going on. So, it makes sense to me that he would try to escape those feelings by using this and other drugs. 
And there is research that suggest he might have made a sound decision in using this. 
But, from my perspective, it might offer immediate relief, but the guy that returned to me at summer’s end, was an angry one. One that didn’t have an inch of happiness left in him. After his Special K (street name) use, he was no longer the guy I loved. 
That guy never returned. Special K, and anger took him from me.
Every article I have read about this study suggests that there is no such thing as immediate relieve for severe depression. But should their really be? 
Having been severely depressed more than once in my life, as is a common symptom if folks who are bipolar like me, I can say first hand how critical it is to have to go through long term care for depression. It’s how it must work. 
It takes months, even years, of not thinking properly to become severely depressed. One thing doesn’t just happen and suddenly you an engulfed in a feeling you cannot escape. Rather, years of things happening and negativity surrounding it and improper thinking, engulfs you. That’s how you get depressed. That’s what happened to me. 
And it has taken quite a bit of time to climb out of that. 
And it should.
All of the therapy I have been through has taught me how to reset my thinking. To remain positive. To fake being positive until you are there — and to know that it is not only possible, but easily possible to be happy. And that is what therapy is all about.
By suggesting that a club drug, one that people get addicted to, one that people use to get high off of, can end depression immediately is dangerous territory. Depression takes time to recover from, just like it takes time to get into, and no drug, Ketamine especially, can end it. 
You have to end the depression yourself, not rely on drugs to do it for you. 

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